This is me being vulnerable. If you know anything about me, my favorite thing to do is journal. I journal prayers, hopes, and struggles. This is a journal entry I did a few days ago when I found out that I will not be attending Physical Therapy school this coming Fall....
It is funny that I bought this journal the time I found out that I had been wait listed for PT school and here I am venting again. I found out in the middle of class, via e-mail, that I was not considered a candidate for the Fall 2011 DPT program. Kara picked me up after class and we went to get ice cream. When we walked in we ran into Amy, Heather, and the two most adorable kids that Amy babysits. God knew what I needed, friends. After ice cream, Amy invited us to go to the park with the kids. This park had a creek. I was watching the 5-year-old, Kate, play. She was splashing around, trying to have fun while not getting her dress wet. God showed me, through Kate, just how I needed to be. Childlike.
When we were little we would play and there was no worry at all. God tells us to have a "childlike" faith. Philippians 4:6-7 "Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." So why, as adults, do we not act more like kids? You do have those times in life where we will get picked last, or not even at all. The best part of this whole thing is that God has picked us. We were never picked last and we will never be picked last again.
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." -James 1:2-4
This verse is my prayer. I pray for perseverance in this season and that in the end I would mature and be complete. I know that I can only become a better person because of this situation that God has placed me in. I can become more childlike, and serve a God who needs to be glorified and exalted.